BANDAGED HEART (+💔)

That was a rainy day, when I got threw away from that relation. A whole day I was walking in a rain with the pain, what I wanted to wash it away but I don't know how it's managed to stuck with my heart and I've broke all those memories but I don't know how it's managed to reassemble all into my heart. So, every night with same incibus and everyday with the same pain. Uff that pain what to say, I wish it gives me only pain but it makes me feel like running in hell with bleeding heart.

                       I tried to control my heart but every time it's split out from my hands. I've pampered it with my feelings, but didn't worked. So, now I'm trying to pamper it with love of parents, with love of sister , with love of brothers, and with love of friends. Injured Heart with a lot pain, I've just bandaged it. I don't know how it will gonna be.......
Merely tried, some lines for BANDAGED HEART ......,,

Here I go,

However it's went

Whatever has gone

It takes me all with it,

In my heart

All I have is

The pain of past,

I'm feeling infliction 

Somewhere inside.....

Every breath is painful 

To living with bandaged heart.

Whenever it's went

Wherever it's gone

It's blown me all away with it,

In my heart

All I have is

The pain of past,

M feeling anguish 

Still somewhere inside…

Every step is painful

To walking with bandaged heart.

Everyday is painful,

Everything is painful,

To living with bandaged heart.

SISTER

Sisters are God’s way of saying, “I’m there for you, anytime”. And if you happen to have an elder sister, then you are blessed in all means. Sisters are best friends for a lifetime. No matter what and no matter where, they are always with you. Their love is unconditional and no matter what. How much you argue, she stands with you, when you need her the most.

Being elder, in all means is a great responsibility. Elder sisters play many roles to their younger ones. They are models for their siblings, strength to turn to, when you are down, a listening ear, a comforting touch, a warm hug, a guide through the toughest times, a mother, a teacher, a friend, the next door girl and what not. A perfect blend of all in one single package is what elder sisters are.

If one notices, when small she protects you from all harm and takes good care of you. As you grow, that love and care deepens and a special bond is formed. She reads you, before you tell her; you can in no way bluff with her.

She stands with you during the toughest times of your life and fights for you, even though she might be facing a tougher situation herself. She is your best friend, you could confide anything with her, and it is locked forever. She foresees danger for you, she plays with you, she joins you at pranks and jokes, yet she knows where to draw the line for you.

Even if she is not physically with you, her mental strength is always with you. Distance apart, she can sense what you are going through, even if you don’t say anything. A strong and protective person is what a sister is a great friend and companion. A comforter, the empathy that she shows when you are feeling low, and the motivation that she gives you, should be felt and not explained, as there are no words for it to be explained.

A sister could exactly tell when you were bad and good, what is that you were fighting for at childhood. She is a perfect model to be looked upon. Even with so much responsibility, she still keeps calm and has the same old smile and naughty chuckles, pats and thrashing even at 60 or 70 for you. You are still a kid for her, no matter how much you grow.

God made sisters and that too elder sisters, coz he could not be everywhere in person and has replaced it with elder sisters. Such is her strength and presence. When she is around, you are strong and when away, you feel hollow. She may correct you, shout at you , blast at you, but she is your elder sister and she loves you more than her self.

We all grow old for the onlookers, but to our siblings, we are always kids and know that we are always there for one another. The family moments, jokes and togetherness could all be taken forward only by a sister. We should live outside the touch of time and enjoy life with our sisters.

Sisters are blessings, treasure them.
I love you D.......more than you know

THE PROMISE

Promises require trust to make. There has to be a certain belief that this person you’re making a promise with will keep it, that this person will respect you enough and your wishes to promise to something.Promises range from keeping a secret to promising someone you will be there for them to promising to take care of them to hold your hand for a life and so many more ways. Most people will commit to promising something but never really think about what it means to actually promise something. And many people don’t keep the promise they make. But I do keep every promise I make because I believe in promises and what they mean to the person I make it with and what it means to me. Because I have experienced the damage of not keeping a promise and it’s not a thing I ever want to experience ......... 

                                                 It's a sensitive,try to keep into a heart

                                                 If you won't try to 

                                                 Make it real

                                                 Somebody will gonna hurt.

                                                 Tell the truth,whatever it is

                                                 Never try to take a safe side

                                                 With standing on a lie,

                                                 If you don't want it to happen

                                                 Don't take a vow

                                                 Once it break it

                                                 It will be gonna hard to

                                                 Believe in the promises.

                                                 Here, I'm 

                                                 It's all I'm 

                                                 Will keep you all above 

                                                 With my feelings

                                                 Can't say

                                                 I'll be a reason for your happiness

                                                 But I'll try

                                                 To never make you feel cry,

                                                 I can make you laugh

                                                 With all my nonsense,

                                                 May time will place us

                                                 On different ways,

                                                 These ways can make us

                                                 Think in different ways

                                                 Even,if you don't think of me

                                                 I'll be missing you always.

                                                 It's THE PROMISE...........

I'LL BE MISSING YOU AS DO THESE DAYS.........................................,..........MISSING YOU. :)

                                          

WALK WITH ME

i was so surprised on a same day i reached there to my residence, my dearest beloved one got married. I didn't know why??? she scared to tell about us to her family or whatever....
It was like usual day, with some friends roaming around coming back home late night.
Actually i was ignoring myself and being in front of my Baba. Cause i couldn't make me stand as my Baba wanted me to do. So, again i decided to go somewhere else and i came here.
And you know how you'll feel after getting alone. Rubbish thoughts,dull mind and etc. I wasn't in mood to talk to anybody but i don't know how i sent that HI! to HER and believe me it was the best hi ever i told.


                                                    The best HI ever
                                                    which comes never
                                                    that brought smile
                                                    to my face
                                                    which was on my favor.

                                       

And SHE replies HI! back. We started to talk with usual things, How are you?, What are you doing now?
How is your life and etc. It was fun to talk to her,to spend time with her and believe me i even couldn't manage time to sleep also. I was like addicted.
                                                                          Now,let me introduce HER self. I knew HER from last 5-6 years but not that much well . We've attend some class together and I've seen HER not more than a month. And after all these 5-6 years we talk.

SHE is pretty. SHE has a wonderful personality. I think if SHE wants to, SHE can have anything SHE want to get, from family, from friends , from lover etc. But when we get closer we shared our feelings and about our past also. SHE shared me HER tragedy as I did. SHE got very hurt by someone, to whom she believed like no one others and what he did??? He hurt her with everything,means with everything. she amazed me somehow , how SHE wanted to be in relation, how SHE used by, SHE told me everything. I was also getting through with some problems so i am feeling good with HER,actually i am at HER. Still i haven't told HER about my feelings but i think SHE knows. After all we've shared a lot of feelings, so SHE could understand me i think. Now I want HER to walk with me. About WALK WITH ME , i wrote down my feelings for HER.
Here it is

                                                     Past has been and gone
                                                     live like you've just born,
                                                     some people came into your life
                                                     and teaches you some lessons
                                                     m sure of that,
                                                     which you didn't wanted to experienced.

                                                     whenever you want to cry
                                                     come to me and cry,
                                                     I'll wipe all your tears.
                                                     whenever you want to fight
                                                     come to me and fight,
                                                     I'll let you win that.
                                                     For make you comfort
                                                     I'll do anything you want.
                                             
                                                     I'll show you the real love
                                                     if you really want to see,
                                                     to make the way you want it
                                                     you just need to walk with me.

                                                     Future is waiting for you
                                                     live like you're getting everything new,
                                                     may you have some dreams!
                                                     m not saying,I'll make it happen all
                                                     but i' m sure of that
                                                     i can make some of,few.
                                             
                                                     whenever you want to laugh
                                                     come to me,
                                                     I'll make you laugh.
                                                     whenever you feel alone
                                                     come to me,
                                                     I'll give you a hug.
                                                     I'll show you the real love
                                                     if you really want to see,
                                                     to make the way you want it
                                                     you just need to walk with me.

                                                                                                         That's it. I'vent showed HER this I'm waiting for a good time. Whenever she wants me to share my feelings about HER I'll let her know. Missing HER
I don't want to loose HER like her.......

THE LAST THING REMAINS IN MY HEART

In a time, one couple went to a long drive.
And they enjoyed a lot as they wanted.
they were coming back, with hugging,kissing,laughing ,,,,, doing what the situation was demanding.
 A girl asks to boy
Girl; Will u gonna remember me?
Boy; I can forget everything but not u........
Girl; Ummm....what,if i wont be able to be yours?
Boy;Well..... I will thank u.
Girl; What???
Boy; Yeah I'll......... if you'll be mine may be my love stops as it is, as i do now.But if you'll not be mine I'll gonna remember you and love you for forever.If you'll make my love immortal so, I need to thank you, right?
(both r laughing) hahahahahahaha....... Just after laugh............
Suddenly they had  an accident, and both of them injured very badly.
Some other guys who was passing through the same way brought them to hospital.
One month later,
After a treatment the boy lost his memory power and girl couldn't  see any-more and couldn't speak as well. She cried a lot but the boy didn't recognized her and they got apart from each other.
After couple of  days a boy found humming this song....

               The last thing remains in my heart
               is you and your words
               you love me too.
               As i promised
               I'll never let you down
               n this i really meant.

               Even you cant see me
               I'll let you know the world
               Even you cant speak
               I'll find out what you feel
               I'll know what you want to speak.

               There wont be hard time
               at all nothing new
               because you know
               that, I LOVE YOU
               even you cant see
               even you cant speak
               I'll be yours.
               And you'll be mine
               because you know
               my everything is you
               and I LOVE YOU

               The last thing remains in heart
                is you and your words
                you love me too.
                If i can live a thousand years
                Every second I'll love you.
             
                Because,
                The last thing remains in my heart
                is you and your words
                you love me too........ 

SWEET MEMORY

Okey, let me start from beginning.
Some new guys just shifted beside 2-3  house beside my home. I really didn't care about that. Days gone as it is and one day when I was on balcony I saw her not really properly but I find her,beautiful.
And what to say every time when used to at home I constantly looking at her house with hope to see her. Times gone like this and one day she was there, may be she didn't notice me but I was very happy for that moment. I started to tease her by doing same poses what she was doing and finally she noticed me. Se smiled and she starts to tease me too, it's goes on couple of weeks. We started to talk on sign language because we didn't wanted to attract others with us.
                                                                One day she came by my house way and I was looking for her that time. I went down, I was waiting for her. She came just in front of me and she asked me my name. I told her may name, when I supposed to ask her name but she told me her name. I asked her where you up to? Se answered school. I asked her again ' if you don't mind may I come with you till the bus stop?' Se said okay, if you want. It's the first time I walked with her, I was feeling so nervous and  she starts to talk about her. When she asked me,are you in love ? I was stopped. I told her yes I am but she don't know about it,It's only one sided. Se asked me again who is she?
I smiled" you know her" . She named all name whoever she knows about and my answer was NO. Se asked me last time to name her, so i tell her 'her name'. She sought and smiled at me really???
Yeah! I don't know how but I am loving you. And I ask her for reply.
She: umm!!!! give me some time.
Me: ahhh!!! For first time to meet you I've waited a year, for answer how long do I have to wait???
We were talking constantly she just said NO. I felt bad and I asked her one favor for me, please don't turn around your head when you see me on the street or anywhere.
She: with tears on eyes, YES
Unexpected she hugged me and i feel relaxed........
We were on different world. Every morning we managed time to meet each other. That was awesome moments of my life. When she kissed me first time ufffffffffffff no words to explain. Same way time goes on, and we done our higher studies. And I went to abroad for further study. Time separate us we had a different GMT so I couldn't get in touch with her as I wanted. But I always sent her offline messages and she used to reply me but after 2 years she didn't reply me. I was keep sending her messages. Finally as I couldn't able to survive there I got a flight to home and I was so happy for that.

After another day When i get back to residence my mom(mane) talk to me about her," she got married yesterday." I was like awk........ I smiled n I talk to my heart " what now?"
I couldn't make me stayed there for a long time by the reason of her and my personal Issue also. I came here. Time has brought to me everything but there is some moments I can't forget. And for that I tried to write some lines, here it is....
Some sleepless night,
Some foodless day,
Dreaming with open eyes,
Funny sometimes,
And sometimes serious,
What is happening?
With my heart beats
It's really fast
And sometimes
I can't feel my breath.

I went to my past
By getting imaginary
And I find out
Why it's happening
It was same theory
You cat forget
Some moments
It's a sweet memory.

I saw her,
On the same way,
She smiled at me
Ad raised hand to me,
I was so frizzed
And when I got touched
My flash back crashed.
I felt bad for a moment
But now feeling good.

Someone's view
Made me happy,
Someone's smile
Made my day,
Someone's presence
Made me comfort,
Someone's touch
Made me loved.

Some sleepless nights,
Some food-less days,
Dreaming with open eyes,
Funny sometimes,
And sometimes serious
Now I know
Why it's happening .
It's a same theory
You can't forget
Some moments,
It's a SWEET MEMORY......

                                            AFTER that time every time when i thought of her that visions comes to my mind and make me feel good..............

UNPREDICTABLE LIFE

"Life" and "unpredictable" go together. If life were predictable, would it really be life? If we knew what was going to happen every day, in every moment, would we really be living? It is the unpredictability of life that makes us alive. Without unpredictability, we would be like puppets, following some predictable path.

Unpredictability & Growth

Without unpredictability, there would be no new understanding, no growth. When we try to make life predicable we cut off some of the most interesting and important experiences of our life. We cut off the possibility of real growth. Human beings try new things, seek new experiences, precisely because they are unpredictable.

Change is a law of life. Growth is a law of life. Without change we do not grow. Without the unpredictable our growth is stunted. Our greatest thinkers, scientists, inventors, and spiritual leaders embrace the unpredictable. They know the rewards to be had by venturing into unknown territory. There is no discovery without exploration. We cannot expand what is new without being open to the unknown.

For a child growing up, everything is unpredictable. Everything is unknown. That is the path of growth for all of us.

The Good, the Bad, & the Ugly

This is not to say that the unpredictable experiences in our lives are always beneficial. In every life there are unexpected disappointments and even crises; sometimes tragedies. These events are extremely negative and can shatter a life. But if we are wise, we will learn from our negative experiences as well as the positive.

If we learn from our negative experiences, even though we are still subject to the unpredictable, we can be better prepared for such future experiences. Our negative experiences can change us for the better as much as our positive experiences. Even serious illnesses, among the most negative and usually unpredictable experiences, can have a positive life-changing impact on the victim. When our life is threatened, we tend to examine our values, look at what is really important to us and what is not.

Being excessively careful not to be surprised by events simply doesn't work and it makes our life less free and enjoyable. Life is richer when we consciously open ourselves to whatever life will bring us. If we accept that life brings all colors and flavors of experience, we can be more prepared just by being open. We can accept the negative more readily when we see it as a learning opportunity, not simply a disaster to be avoided.

The attempt to control one's life too rigidly is simply a setup for the unpredictable to be be more devastating than need be. An attitude of openness and a willingness to follow impulses and hunches can be exciting and rewarding. Unpredictability is your friend!